I walked through the door on Saturday and the energy was immediately different. You could feel the anticipation, the excitement, and the fear. The athletes were out in the main area of the box stretching, chatting, and trying to get their minds clear before the big, bad, 16.1 WOD. I was trying not to pee myself.
My time slot was 9AM. The time was nice and early, it was the first heat, a great time to go, but I made a couple of crucial errors. 1. I didn’t eat before I left. I was too nervous. I chugged water, had some electrolytes but didn’t eat. Not the best idea and I definitely felt it. Breakfast first next time. 2. I was in my head before I started. I am my own worst enemy and it proved to be my downfall for this first WOD. I could not seem to get Negative Dawn out of my head. She stayed there until the last 3 minutes of the 20 minute AMRAP, when I was finally able to stop listening to her excuses, feeling the “made up” pain, and just able to push through like I knew that I could. Next time Negative Dawn will not rule my WOD. Positive Dawn will rule, and my score will improve. Quote me on that.
Finishing the WOD I didn’t get the score that I “wanted” or could have gotten. My negativity won and my score was the result of that. I was physically prepared but not mentally.
After looking back on this first WOD I’m able to see a few things. 1. The CrossFit community is so supportive. My judge, Julia was my BIGGEST cheerleader throughout the WOD. She pushed me, gave me props, and small pep talks through the entire 20 minutes. She literally got me through the end, and was the driving force in seeing Negative Dawn out of my brain. I can’t thank her enough. Julia wasn’t my only cheerleader though. I had many on the sideline as well. The feeling of being cheered on by fellow athletes was just too amazing to put into words, and I’m forever grateful for those who took the time for just a simple, “You got this Dawn.” It meant and means the world. 2. I’m stronger than I thought I was. I signed up. I showed up. And I performed. I may not have gotten the score that I had wanted or could have gotten but I did it. I made it through and I will be pushing my hardest on 16.2 to prove not only to myself but to my cheerleaders that I am an athlete through and through, and one that won’t let negatively bring her down. Now .. let’s get on to 16.2! (And no burpees like a madwoman the night before.)
Dawn is a participant in CrossFit Nashua's 2015/2016 "Fit-For-Life" program. Participants track their progress in the CrossFit training program during the coming 1-year period and log their progress in this blog. Best of luck Dawn, in meeting your training goals!