One year ago today, I walked into Crossfit Nashua; exhausted, a bit hung-over (wedding the night before), and completely unprepared for what was about to happen. When I first walked into the box I was greeted with smiles, and warmth; these people radiated genuine kindness, and sincerity. As I sat down for small presentation by one of the owners Eric my stomach was doing flip-flops, and my mind was filling with doubt. “What did I sign up for? Were we really doing a “real” workout today? Why did I come here? These people around me deserve this SO MUCH MORE than me.” While I was mindlessly drifting I missed half of the presentation, and was all of a sudden being asked to get up to workout. I’m not going to sugarcoat anything, the workout was brutal, I thought I was going to pass out at one point, and I wanted to give up and walk out of the door. After the workout was over I could hardly move, but I was incredibly proud that I survived. Later that evening I was offered a chance to endure a yearlong challenge with the 4 others whom worked out with me. I accepted, and couldn’t wait to get started. Now here is where I get brutally honest with myself, and with all of you. In the beginning I was dedicated, I ate right, I exercised, I blogged. I was on a roll, and felt great. As the months progressed though I slipped up, I veered off course, and lost dedication. I made excuses for myself, I struggled with injuries, and I got depressed. I tried (although not hard enough to get back on course) but it seemed like an uphill battle. My self-worth was failing but my box-mates strength, and kindness for me never faltered. Without the many messages, check-ins, and kind words from the many people that I work out with or cross paths with I would have most certainly dropped Crossfit back in July; just because it was the easy way out. I thank the stars for each one of you kind people, you are the reason that I am still here.
Fast forward to September, a Clean Eating Challenge was mentioned and I saw this as an opportunity for redemption. I swore to myself that I was going to do this, and that I was going to do everything in my power to follow the rules strictly. I wasn’t going to let this last opportunity that I had this year slip through my fingers. So I signed up, (Well Emily signed me up. HIGH FIVE [15 still owed.].) started prepping my meals, starting marking my calendar with dates of workouts, and downloaded some apps to map out my progress. I was in it to win it. It was about to go down!
The first week was hard, I had withdrawal headaches, I was tired, and cranky, but I stuck with it. I made my workouts, I met my macros, and calories, and I did so pretty easily. I had one cheat day for my birthday and I felt it the Monday following during my birthday burpees. It was almost a modest reminder of, “Hey jerk, you’re working your ass off. Don’t blow it with one night of boozing.” The second week was more of a struggle, my macros weren’t matching what I wanted, and my calories were way under. I started to panic. What was happening? Into week three I’m killing it. I’m prepping away, meeting macros, calories, and FEELING AMAZING. I am down quite a few inches in my waist, my thighs, my shoulders, and chest! I hadn’t stepped on a scale since September 26th so I decided to do so this morning, and wouldn’t you know it, I’M DOWN 12 POUNDS!” HOMERUN FOR THE HOME TEAM! I’m more than thrilled that this change in diet in exercise has gotten me to where I am, and only at 2 ½ weeks in. I could sit here and feel poorly about not giving it my 100% this entire time, and reflect about how I could be a lot farther in my fitness journey than where I am but I’m not going to do that. I’m proud that something finally clicked inside me, I’m proud that I made this change for me and that I am doing a wonderful job sticking to it. I am also incredibly proud to look back at my past year of Crossfit and see not only the struggles that I made it through but to see the friends and the family that I made. I am truly a better person because of Crossfit Nashua, and this may only be my One Year Anniversary but it certainly isn’t my last.
Dawn is a participant in CrossFit Nashua's 2015/2016 "Fit-For-Life" program. Participants track their progress in the CrossFit training program during the coming 1-year period and log their progress in this blog. Best of luck Dawn, in meeting your training goals!